Author: Richard

The blessing and the curse

For oh, the past 30 – 40 years I’ve identified as a “lifelong learner.” It sounds amazing, right? I’ve always taken great pride in the title. Since learning about my ADHD though, I’ve taken a very close look at the things I’ve actually done with all this learning, in particular, the things I’ve finished. It’s not a lengthy catalogue, and it’s been gathering dust.

Learning is not always doing

It’s easier to list the things I didn’t finish: high school and two colleges are the biggies, and I’ve lost count of the projects. The “paperwork” (certificates, diplomas…) just didn’t mean anything to me. and I might even have been caught snarking at the lack of barriers I faced due to that… “attitude,” is exactly what it was. I had more than enough “credits,” simply not the “right” ones; I just took the courses I wanted—not always what they said I “need.”

But, beyond the obvious youthful exuberance and naivete, this attitude was based in very large part on the fact I was doing things I associated with my goals, things I wanted to do. I was learning with others, resulting in a social life. I was playing music for income and teaching. I finished three university programs, learning computers on the side and monetizing the knowledge.

I developed a reliance on that source of income that simply wasn’t in proportion to the satisfaction level it provided. I now have one entire bulletin board at work dedicated to “certificates of completion” for things I’ve completed—but never done! It might be why I don’t buy into every “set a quota, just finish things” or (the extreme) “quantity is quality” arguments I’ve heard. In many cases they come from smart, highly creative and productive, well-intended people—who can never share my particular experience in my unique space within the neurodiversity spectrum.

Meditation …and a checklist

Unquestionably, meditation, with diaphragm breathing, preceded a recent burst of creativity. I’m not suggesting it’s the catalyst, but I’m certain it’s an important facilitator.

To reject the imposter and emerge from the shadows

I have always been unnecessarily hard on myself. I meditate to stop doing that. In the Medito app I choose affirmations and loving kindness topics such self-esteem, motivation and loneliness, including Giovanni’s.

I track the things I want to do, including daily meditation, on a checklist I keep at the desk where I now create most of my music—a place I visit often, where I’ve been able to reliably keep a couple pens. It’s a spreadsheet I did in LibreOffice, with a column of weekdays forming weeks of rows down the side and 10 activity columns across the top. Of those, 8 are music-self-development items, 1 is “household” and the last one is titled, “If it’s a win, write it in.”

Here’s my only caution: I found it much easier to strengthen and internalize diaphragm breathing meditating on my back. With that foundation, I’m committing to doing it seated, at my desk, before I work or practice. While it’s true successful meditation is by no means reserved for those who practice “The Posture,” I’m convinced there’s a special quality, a centring effect it contributes, that might increase effectiveness.

Next time you’re in your creative space, try meditating before you start any “work.” Think about how you felt a time your work was praised. Create a positive affirmation, like (all or any part of) “People recognize and admire my talent. I am worthy of the respect of my peers. May my ideas today spring forth, flower and bear fruit.” Then think of someone you admire for their creativity, and rephrase your affirmation accordingly: “I recognize and admire your talent. You are worthy of the respect of your peers. May your ideas spring forth, flower and inspire.”

Now make this a habit. Good luck!

I’m in Nashville, Tennessee this weekend with many fellow Reverse Engineers. We’ve had a couple days to network and see the sights. In a minute I’m off to the Gallery of Iconic Guitars.

This is another milestone in my journey. In just a year I’ve learned how to mix and master music in a digital audio workstation (DAW) and developed my hearing and listening skills in ways I’d feared might be beyond a person my age. I’m part of a highly supportive community, dedicated to bolstering our own learning through interaction and collaboration with others. It seems quite unique in an era and industry sometimes known for cutthroat competition. I am grateful.

More to follow!

Guitar Faces, as I quip frequently, is a music blog “for the practising musician” — meaning that even before the infamous pandemic, and despite a 16-year stretch where my guitar playing paid all my bills — I’ve arrived once again at a place in my life where I do a lot more practising than performing. But I was surprised and dismayed when old foils like stage fright and writer’s block threatened to return. How could this be happening… again?

That’s when I learned about undiagnosed adult ADHD. It err, struck a chord with me. In a windmill down stroke worthy of Townsend (or Cervantes) so much of my experience attempting a career in music fell into place. Getting a grip on my innate inattention, impulsivity and hyperactivity is improving my playing.

Reinvesting in myself is the word I want to use for it, not reinventing. My spiritual quest, if you will, has always been to be the best me I can be…

Reinvesting in myself is the word I want to use for it, not reinventing. My spiritual quest has always been to be the best me I can be, which has always in some way meant being the best guitarist I can be—since I was 14. Neurofeedback, at 63, enabled me to experience meditation in ways that eluded me a lifetime. Meditation now informs my guitar practice.

Keeping a journal is a highly recommended strategy for all professionals, regardless of their place on the neurodiversity spectrum. This journal is primarily for me; you are invited to look, see and engage as much or as little as suits you. My production services will always remain competitive. My experiences and the story of my journey will always be free.

Now… about those faces…

Not what – how!

I’m going to just say it straight off the top: what you practice is not as important as how you practice it. Here are some basics. I’m going to elaborate on all of them, but not now.

Use a metronome or other timekeeper

I have more than one, but I haven’t always used them. I now believe in using it every time I practise, but not necessarily for the entire practice. I mainly use Pro Metronome by EUMLab.

Drum machines are also good, and I spend time with Drum Genius.

Listen carefully to the drum loop, measure its length, surf on the meter, breath and move your body following the time feel. When you feel comfortable, play or sing, trying to groove with the loop as much as you can and remember: DON’T MISS THE ONE!

Mauro Battisti (creator, Drum Genius)

Read music

This helps me focus and improves my memory. My ADD-aware approach is to look at the entire page while breathing through my nose to lower my heart rate. I try to take it in all at once, noting time and key signature, dynamics and form. My goal for reading is to hear it in pitch even without my instrument.

I’m not a fan of tablature, especially when it has no rhythm. It makes it even harder for me to follow the staves.

Scales, double stops, triad inversions

Segovia’s fingerings are awesome — but incomplete. I now try to know his fingerings, but mix and match the position changes. The Berklee two-octave scales are an important aid in this. Segovia gives you 3 or 4 fingerings that work for all major and melodic minor scales in all 24 keys. The classic melodic minor scale’s descending form is the natural minor.

The 7th mode of the jazz melodic minor, also known as “the altered scale,” is an important one Segovia skipped. The first 4 notes are a diminished scale, and the next 4 are a whole tone scale.

I’ve done fingerings based on Segovia’s and Berklee’s (William G. Leavitt’s) for all the church modes, which I’ll post here eventually.

Thirds, sixths and tenths are the obvious double-stops to begin with, and chromatic octaves. This chromatic octave exercise is often the first thing I do when I pick up the nylon string guitar.

Relax

Breathe. Meditate. Seriously — practice can be a form of meditation. For me it has to remain mindful. I support The Medito Foundation and I use their app for guided meditation.